Confident?

I'm an "I" personality. If you've ever taken then DISC profile personality test you know what I am talking about. If you haven't but know the one about the animals--I believe they call my personality an "otter". I have a book that lists the characteristics of an "I" personalities. One trait it mentions is: "masks insecurities with over confidence".

I cannot speak for others--but I can say this is very true of me. There. I've said it. *sigh of relief*

Because of this, when I read Philippians 1 I'm intrigued. Paul is writing to the church in Philippi, while under house arrest in Rome and he tells them that he is confident that God will continue the good work He has started in them and that he's confident he'll see them again.

Confident in God continuing to work in the church--I get that. Confident/Convinced that he'll see them again? Really? You are under house arrest. People are talking about how you will die.

I looked up the Greek word used here for confident--it means "to rely (by inward certainty)--agree, assure, believe, have confidence, be confident, make friend, obey, persuade, trust, yield.

Paul was certain he'd see the Philippians again. But certain in what? "I am confident in the Lord that I will come too". (2:24) It's like he is saying: "I rely on the Lord...I will come see you. I agree with the Lord...I obey, trust, yield to the Lord."

I will always struggle with masking my insecurities with over confidence. I used to hate it--now I know its a gift. It keeps me from being too confident in myself; and solely confident in the Lord.