On the suggestion of a friend, I have started reading "Girl Meets God" by Lauren F. Winner. She grew up an Orthodox Jew and is now a Christian.
I read and find myself wishing for more depth in the church traditions I know. Everything is a symbol for the Jews. And they actually take time to stop and remember. It is law for them to take a week and celebrate their history. We have come a long long way from then...and it makes me sad and leaves me feeling empty, like my faith is lacking.
Then Lauren says this "...I go down to shul where I sometimes worshiped in college, when I was still an Orthodox Jew, a shul where they know Hebrew and melodies and know nothing about Jesus."
They do not know anything about Jesus. They know him as the son of a carpenter and a good rabbi, but nothing of the saving grace he offered. "He came into his own but his own did not receive him..." For me...this is slowly becoming one of the saddest verses in all of scripture.
Lauren's struggle is finding a way to marry the traditions she has grown up in with her new faith in Christ and maybe by the end of the book she will have accomplished this task. What I am slowly realizing is that my heart wants a way to marry the faith I have grown up in with the traditions of the Jews. After all, I have been grafted in.