LONELY AMERICANS?

That was the title of the article on MSN this morning. I'd post the link here, but I cannot find it and I don't have the energy to keep looking for it. The article basically said in the age of modern technology more Americans are feeling alone and there are many who don't know one person, outside immediate family, that they can confide in.

This is sad. This is my reality...or so it feels. I can honestly say I have more than immediate family members that I know care about me and that I can confide in. I'm actually VERY blessed in that area and my head knows this.

My heart, on the other hand, is currently not recognizing it as truth. It hasn't quite caught up to my head. I feel I am again in the "tweener" spot between wanting to be at large parties, hanging with lots of people and laughing a ton and being very tired of the superficialness of parties. I crave authentic, deep, real, hurting, accepting, no-mask relationships. Again, I am blessed because I do have these...but why so much void?

Today, every time I feel the lonliness creep in, I remind myself of the relationships I do have. Last week I simply bowed my head whilst waiting for traffic and asked the Lord to be my affirmation.

He was. He is.

I know this season will pass and someday I'll crave days of being alone.

I am not stuck here, but I do wonder how long this lasts and want despertly to fix me. I'd like to shake some sense into my heart.

btw...this pic got an honorable mention in the contest. no free camera...but i'm surviving

Hi there...

My weekend in Mayville was GRAND! It was also crazy busy and a little on the loud side. However, that is my family. My brother had a good weekend and it was fun to see him happy again.

On the way back my planes, yes that's plural, were delayed. Everywhere I went. It started with the first flight...delayed by 30 minutes. Then we had storm issues near Atlanta so we had to land in Chattanooga, fill up with gas, and then keep circling Atlanta. Once we landing...I sprinted through the airport (instead of the 2 1/2 hour delay. I haven't decided which is better yet)...barely made the flight home and then we sat on the runway for 45 minutes because of more storms in our path.

As I was sitting on the runway in Atlanta I had to laugh at my "hurry up and wait" situation. I made a small parallel to my spiritual journey...but writing it down it seems really lame.

I still need a day to recover from being home...but it may be a while before that happens and I'm ok with that.

Adios

I'm leaving...on a jet plane...

I'm off to Mayberry...I mean, Mayville. My brother has graduated from high school and I'm going home for the PAARRTTAAYY!

I'm excited to be with my family. It's been too long.

I need out of Nashville. I've been cranky, especially at work. Lots of prayer about my attiude and not so much action on those prayers.

Weekend

It feels like the weekend just started. It was a very quick one.
Friday was game night with the girls. We played a very vicious game of Sequence and then an even more vicious game of Taboo. My team lost by a point.

Saturday I actually slept in, which made me extremely giddy for the rest of the day. It also helped that the weather was beautiful! I spent a little time working out, went to the pool, got my hair trimmed, watched Sixteen Candles, worked on music for Awaken, went and got a pedicure and then finished the evening with "The Breakup". The movie made me sad...but I think it was fairly realistic.

Today was just as beautiful as yesterday. We had Awaken outside, then Christa and I watched a "storm" roll in. (storm--a 5 minute downpour w/ thunder and lightening) Because of the "storm" the softball games got cancelled. So I came home and Christina and I eventually made our way to the Nashville Sounds Stadium to see her friends Cross Culture. It was fun...and my arms are a light shade of red.

Now I'm taking a break before cleaning. And then its bed.

Exciting stuff eh?