LONELY AMERICANS?

That was the title of the article on MSN this morning. I'd post the link here, but I cannot find it and I don't have the energy to keep looking for it. The article basically said in the age of modern technology more Americans are feeling alone and there are many who don't know one person, outside immediate family, that they can confide in.

This is sad. This is my reality...or so it feels. I can honestly say I have more than immediate family members that I know care about me and that I can confide in. I'm actually VERY blessed in that area and my head knows this.

My heart, on the other hand, is currently not recognizing it as truth. It hasn't quite caught up to my head. I feel I am again in the "tweener" spot between wanting to be at large parties, hanging with lots of people and laughing a ton and being very tired of the superficialness of parties. I crave authentic, deep, real, hurting, accepting, no-mask relationships. Again, I am blessed because I do have these...but why so much void?

Today, every time I feel the lonliness creep in, I remind myself of the relationships I do have. Last week I simply bowed my head whilst waiting for traffic and asked the Lord to be my affirmation.

He was. He is.

I know this season will pass and someday I'll crave days of being alone.

I am not stuck here, but I do wonder how long this lasts and want despertly to fix me. I'd like to shake some sense into my heart.