Happy...

About a year ago I started praying for more guy friends. I had a couple, but I really missed having guy friends I could call to help me fix stuff, or be my "date" to random events, etc.

This morning I was able to sit in my living room with six guy friends; and there were more who couldn't make it. These were the men who came along side and personally walked with me through the planning of the BNL retreat. These were my support system, outside of the amazing women I got to serve with as well.

I love these men so much! They have each uniquely spoken to who I am as a woman, loved by God. Really, it's one of my life-long dreams to have them all sit in a room and make them be friends, of course, some of them already are, and today that kind of happened.

I didn't think a year ago I would have this much. God's faithfulness to do exceedingly abundantly above my expectations...never ceases to amaze me.

Rare Moments of "Here"

It's not very often I find myself in this place.  

The place of having so many deep, yet-to-be-filled longings and overwhelming peace at the same time.  Usually things are two separate feelings for me.  Usually I move in and out of them depending on the day, hour or minute.  

It's a very deep peace, a deep place. If this moment in my life had a soundtrack, I think it would be some old 1940's jazz or blues singer, with a deep baritone voice singing strong and smooth. I should be sitting in the dark corner of said singer's bar soaking in my surroundings, enjoying the moment.  

I do not know what tomorrow will hold, I'm not even sure I'll live to see it--this is never a given---but for now, this place, this peace, this depth--surrounds me.  Its easy to miss these moments, its easy to want to rush past them to get to the next thing.  It can seem too difficult to enjoy the "here".  The right now, the "in the midst of", or as some have said "to stop and smell the roses"

I have not determined if this is comfortable.  I just know its different. 

Accepting...

In II Samuel 7 and I Chronicles 17 is the Davidic Covenant. These two chapters are almost word for word identical (I love that!) In this passage, the Lord gave the prophet Nathan a vision about building the temple and establishing David's Kingdom forever. David's response is worship--and awe. I Chronicles 17:23--"And now Lord, let the promise you have made concerning your servant and his house be established forever. Do as you have promised"

David accepted it. It makes me wonder--have there been promises God has made me that I haven't accepted?

I mean, that's a pretty big deal--God establishing David's Kingdom forever. David won't live forever, he only lives for a small part of forever, but still he says "Do as you have promised"

Do we say this? Do we trust Him enough to carry out His promises throughout eternity? Do we really believe about generational curses/blessings? Where is our faith? Where is my faith?

What He says--He does. Accept it.