Dec 27th

I think it's the 27th...my days all run together when I don't have a set schedule. I do know it's Wednesday, almost Thursday and I'm ready to be by myself for a little while. I do not know if this bodes well for my married days or not.

So far home has been good. Christmas was typical...I've met the new boyfriends of the family, saw cousins from Chi-town and Arizona, had breakfast with my "2nd family" from my Grap days. I am looking forward to Saturday with Jess and April. I am looking forward to hanging out with my brother tomorrow eventhough he's driving me nutso right now. It's only temporary as I am planning on sleeping shortly. I hope I sleep better tonight than I did last night...and that my sister does wake me up at 6....that's just annoying.

All in all..its been good...but I'm ready for Nashville. I missed Awaken...

Christmas Party Time!

Ok...so for those of you concerned...I'm doing much better. Understanding why I'm just now begining the struggle has been very freeing...:)

Sunday night I went to Awaken's Christmas party. It was FAN-TABULOUS! God has brought together a very unique group of people that is fairly fluid and changing and I absolutely adore it. I am amazed every Sunday when we gather and my heart overflows throughout the week when I think about it. YAY!

Last night was the Office Christmas Party. It was fun...we ate and talked. The 6 of us got our office picture taken, which will get framed in early January. Michael thought his sweater was too bright...it kind of was. :) It was fun to see every enjoying themselves, and good to see couples who still liked each other. YAY again.

I cannot wait for Friday. I leave to visit the family for a weekish or so. I'm still praying it's a white Christmas.

some awaken peeps

so...as I continue to share the struggle and continue to realize that it isn't uncommon and that I am apparently more frustrated than the rest of humanity about it, I realized something.

The reason this is a "newer" frustration to me is because I was doing what I wanted to do w/ the rest of my life and now I'm not. Apparently, I haven't dealt with that yet...

It's here...AGAIN!

I think I feel like this everytime God is about to change something in my life. I feel like I'm not really good at any thing, I still don't know what to do with my life (which, I know...isn't uncommon...but for the love! It's an annoying stage!) I want a job where I get paid to hang out with people...and that's all I have to do. Sit and talk and drink coffee if I feel like it.

I've shared the struggle with a few people and their advice/insight is always appreciated. I'm thankful they have faith for me. It's a "borrow mine" situation. I have nothing left of my own. I am thankful for the friends who are holding my arms up...I am weary of this struggle. I am weary of the same question. I am weary of waiting.

Take my hand and walk with me a while

Cause it seems your smile has failed you

And don't give in, when you fall apart

And your broken heart has failed you

I'll set a light up On a hilltop

To show you my love For this world to see

You can borrow mine when your hope is gone

Borrow mine when you can't go on

Cause the world will not defeat you

When we're side by side

When your faith is hard to find

You can borrow mine

Take my love when all that you can see

Is the raging sea all around us

And don't give up 'cause I'm not letting go

And the God we know will not fail us

We'll lay it all down as we call out Sweet Savior help our unbelief

You can borrow mine when your hope is gone

Borrow mine when you can't go on

Cause the world will not defeat you

When we're side by side

When your faith is hard to find

You can borrow mine

When you are weak

Unable to speak You are not alone

The God who has saved us

Will never forsake us

He's coming to take us take us to our home

You can borrow mine when your hope is gone

Borrow mine when you can't go on

Cause the world will not defeat you

When we're side by side

When your faith is hard to find

You can borrow mine

~Bebo Norman~

I want one of these

Too bad there is no Kava House in Nashville.

I am slightly impressed with Trident though. Way to be thinkers!

More places should have these.